illusionxzs

2009-07-21T04:19:00.000-07:00

honestly, everything is fucked up now. get it? my patience is limited, i don't want to bear so much troubles anymore. enough is enough. TYVM.

KOSIPEI
we have gotten very close, haven't we? honestly am so sorry i could not go for your court case, i have school. i love you my dear, my letter is ready for you, all printed out and everything. lynn wont leave you de. you'll always have me.

now, my life is screwed. really, and blogging is one way to stress it out. you know how much, how much, i want my life back? my perfect one? it honestly is haywire. yuxuan, what you said is right. i know what you mean, i know how you feel, clara and i have the same thoughts too. drea, you must takecare okay? fel ,you must maitain your love life, don;t let it slip through your fingers.

NEVER ever will i be, the same lynn again. hiatus is fun, shall i try? (:

i have not blogged for a long time.

2009-07-16T07:45:00.000-07:00

okay, it has been like, a week since i posted. i am pms-ing now -.- don'tknow why , my mood is getting from bad to worse day by day. but i tahan, cause i know now that my bloodbonds and alot of other people that are close to me, are very tired and upset and stressed too. bloodbonds and sisters and brothers, no matter what , i shall always be there for you okay ? (: no matter what happens,rain or shine, my ears and shoulders are always here for you all. ^^ !

recently went out w lydia hoon ! (L) i missed you girl, though before that we drifted alot alot alot, but now we are as close as before and i am glad we cleared all misunderstandings! hahah, had a blast w her while we were at vivo, heart to heart talking. girl, i know you still miss him. dont be sad anymore yeah? i understanf how you feel, cause we are in the same situation ! remember i owe you sakae!
i cant fucking upload pictures la , wtf -.- . my com has a problem i swear. Tmd. nvm. sorry stalkers, me love you all !

tag replied :

to alson: you are which alson ?
to xiao blur: of course sist ^^ love you.

birthdayyyyyyy !

2009-07-10T00:01:00.000-07:00

tags replied:
Ryan: yes i remember you. link me. TYVM.
Valerie: thank daughter. text mama. 83882056. loveyou!
yvonne: thanks ah zeh! i love you darl.
BABY:hor, i miss you jie ):
passer-by: thanks (: uhm, birthday spell wrongly?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEXZSXZS! ^^

horrr, thanks fel fel and clara and dreadrea and yuxuan and xiao blur for the happy birthday note on your blogs ! :B i simple adore them okay (: . okay, so i went to school for half a day, like cutexzs, cause my dad is going to bring me out after that. i woke up and saw 56 messages of happy birthday ! like sweet luh you all [: reached school and have like lots lots of hugs and wishes for my birthday [; then i went back like, eleven plus? i think. went to eat at a restaurant and had $1200 to spend at paragon O: but i dint spend all. at night my mother booked the whole bloody restaurant for me, honoured! ^^ then talked to bi for a long long time . oh ya, i am attached! to Wilson Chen Wei Zhen/Ahsiao ! 9 july 09, 22.15 pm (L)

ps : ( many heartxzs to yolanda,charmaine,germaine,xiaocherr,monster,kuncheng,boonkiat & botak for birthday wishes)

WILL POST PICTURES NEXT TIME !

2009-07-05T01:22:00.000-07:00

Sharing thoughts...Wiping tears...Being there for one-another through the years.
Giving advice, to make things right. Showing you care by holding me tight.
When the road gets rough.And the people keep on going.
You always seem to be there, and our sistership keep on growing.
i (L) you bloodbonds,sisters and brothers.

2009-07-05T00:26:00.000-07:00

going to scold the stupid m1 company. wow. send wrong bills.

SHAG. Don't feel like talking now, bye.

i'm back ^^

2009-07-04T06:03:00.000-07:00

tags replied:
princess : hi sister ^^ me love you, and yes, i saw you that day !
aikkiko: hi lovely! nah, i have not forget you, link me up ! me love you :B
priscilla: uh. idk.why ?
junxuan! : hi sweet (L) link me !

okay, i have not blogged for one week. sorry stalkers, due to my ayg thingy. you knw, i am like charcoal now? under the hot son for so freaking long. like wtf? i am dark enough alr. did not have much to blog anyway. went to changi village to meet drea, fel, and her boyfriend, and sipei treat me eat prata ^^ made me think about prata boy (O: ) super cute la he. horrr, drea you better cheer up okayxzs ! me love you laaa :D felfel, you lucky la. boyfriend so sweet to you. and recently, i am lucky too, bloodbonds should know why :D .
stiwell ong,weiquan and wilson chen owes me a super big treat! i their pockets is going to burn a big hole! okay, this is random, but i have been talking to ahsiao on the phone till like, four in the morning, and i have to over exert myself during the day, so i am really tired these few days, on friday i met yvonne, & xiao han was so kp i swear ! go die la -.- and my dad was like kp-ing me cause my phone no battery, cutexzs i swear. and my ezlink has no money. so i ran to cineleisure to ask monster for help. he gave me a spare phone and 5 bucks.Thanks for saving me!:D & i found out his secrets O: heh, people who wanna know , ask me.!

yuxuan.please cheer up. okay? though you say you are alright, but i can see, your feelings towards him are still real. i know how you feel, and no matter what, lynn always here. dont hide your feelings, it hurts to go through this alone. just remember at least there will be someone who will listen to all your troubles!

dreadrea, your mood these few days, have not been good ): please tell me why. you know i luv you alotalotttt ! bloodbonds (L) lynn's ears always here for you okay ? yeahpyeahp, follow your heart!

&& I LOVE MY SECRET BOY SO SO SO MUCH !

thonning day O:

2009-06-27T19:37:00.000-07:00

I SWEAR TO HEAVEN AND EARTH, THAT I LOVE THE DAY WE THON.(:
first i had like, ayg preview. like amazing. -.- the game is still on ?! O; after h1n1 flu. so yeah, i went. and y'knw, one pack of chips is like, six dollars?! abit ex ah -.- . so i went home at six plus,bathed, and changed and pia cab come down. drea and clara screamed when they see me. and five min before that i was betting w hiromi they wont O: ( maybe i should rethink my choice next time) . then slackedand dreadrea made cupcakes for bloodbond^^. mine had the iloveyou word on it ! O: in drea blog you go and see. so sweet pleaseee. so we threw fries at each other and nonsened for a moment. saw shanice! hor, i missed her. and you then we decided to go tooch and blah blah blah. normal thonning. but you know my freedom is limited.

and i just woke up not long ago, and drea is screaming her head off beside me now ^^. i love clara drea and fel (bloodbonds[L])

tired.

2009-06-25T23:14:00.000-07:00

HONESTLY AND REALLY TIRED.really . enough is enough. fucking bitch, dont act so sweet in front of me i swear. you wanna make me puke.sistership?please la hor. you are just using me. yes, i should really open my eyes to see who is my real sisters. and i know its not you., drift le . yes, whats w your attitude? you dont even bother talking to me . so you have no right to say that. why must i always take initiative? you dont understand my feelings, dont you ? whore,i really hate you ! you know ? its cause of you , my life is partly miserable now. GO AND DIE YOU DISGUISTING SLUT. LYNN CHANG DOES NOT NEED YOUR PITY YOU UNDERSTAND ?! HATE ME GO AWAY LA. i dont need you to ruin my life ^^

yesterday, slept at three plus. thinking and wondering. whats up with life. why must it play tricks on me.
dreadrea, yesterday, you seemed so moody and upset . i rather take the pain, you know ? since i am already taking the pain. honestly i dont wish to see you sad anymore. it hurts okay . ): we will go through this together okay ? [': i know you will be strong. i have faith in you.you are always there so i shall always be there too,bloodbonds(L)

sipei, dont so stress le hao ma ? its not worth thinking over those &*%%$#@ lynn always here for you [: and i not weird okay ! i promise to open my eyes bigger next time to look at people. me love you ! forever !

clara, dont cry darlingggg ! ): it hurts me to know you cried. horrr, we were crying last night. i know you are really sad and life is really unfair . but lynn in here for clara and clara is her for lynn ^^. with this fact we will overcome this. i know we will. sigh. darling never hesitate to turn to me for comfort okay ? forever there. bloodbonds(L)

felicia, you luckiest ^^ boyfriend so sweet to you ! you deserve the happiness girl, and you shall always be happy okay ? when you used to be so sad that time, you were always still there. we talk heart to heart about boyf matters and now you found your true happiness. i am so glad for you. i love you bloodbond(L)

velda,sarah,blurblur: though we drifted so much. and did not talk so much alr, i never forgotten you all. no matter what , i will still be there, if one day you should need me. i never ever will forget you all. lets meet up soon and chat okay ? alot alot to chat up. love you sisters! always do. sorry if i had not been a good sisters. i will promise and try to make up to you all.

boyf(?), you caused me so much misery. till, i cant ever know how to mend my hole again, honestly. forgetting you alr. i have my sisters and friends , maybe through this i really know guys cannot be trusted? maybe. but, stop doping alr. it will kill you. and honestly i mean kill you stop it okay? perhaps one day you will know my meaning...

back to blogger.

2009-06-25T01:14:00.000-07:00

okay so stalkers, after much persuasion , back to blogging. Honestly alot happen luh.but loads of thanks to yuxuan, dreadrea ,felfel, clara, sipei, boonkiat and jeslin for their concern. i will hang on till the end.[':
yeahp, omfdg. guess what? this blog took the whole freaking afternoon to complete. rotting at home currently. cant wait for saturday luhh ! celebrating felfel's birthday ! :D. horrr , i got your presents ready alr, my darling. [: and my birthday is coming too okay! so i am kind of expecting a happy one after 15 years of lonely celebration.

22nd june,monday.
super loads of thanks to drea and clara for the uber fun movie date.DAMN FUN LUH I SWEAR ! the day before i was supposed to meet tanboonkiat in the morning, hallejuah , he dua me early inthe morning at seven plus. called drea and was really anxious cause i did not want to be alone . she suggested calling sipei.i did and initally, she was free. while reaching, she fell asleep and dua me ._. i called drea, again. she then said go to macs and sit and buy a magazine to read for three damn long hours. so, i did. damn long luh i swear. all alone. the macs auntie stared at me like i was some weirdo, wtf ? -.- drea the chiong out to meet me. ahahah. when to ear soursop, oh ya, its freaking nice okay! [: go try it ! then ahneo dua-ed me again. then we bus-ed to tamp to meet amos ( stupid son) and clara F!darling i really missed you okay ! after that we threw like freaking lotsa fries on amos cause he bullied me and drea. damn funny. so we watched this movie,as seen in the picture uploaded. its damn effing gross and scary. i screamed and screamed and even cried ._. stupid right ? yeah and the woman in the show who casued me to have nightmares for three days look like this=

scary right ? yeah well, her face showed up in most of the scenes. i screamed and hug drea when she suddenly appeared from the closest. like, eew please. so sick can . gordon and drea, clara and fel hugged pretty most of the time. so sweet please! ^^ while i am only holding on to my cardigan. kind of wished my boyf was there. but no, disappointement is just in me from time to time. boy, you know , its really killing me ? never mind if you dont care about me anymore. i just wish you happiness, okay? [:
went home after that , my freedom is so limited -.- .

i have to go now. tag please . and tag me for links. love you all stalkers!

2009-01-28T00:53:00.001-08:00

hello (: . yeah . this is my new blog. link me up okay . luv yaw!